Monday, January 2, 2012

New Year 2012

It has been a year since I threw away everything I had and knew and moved back to Montrose.  I came back with a list of what had to be done, what could be done and what should be done.  I don't think I've accomplisehed much of it.  Everything takes longer than anticipated but isn't that always the case when you've set unreasonable expectations to start with?  Maybe.  But I have a habit of requiring more from myself than is reasonable and this year is no different.  To encourage and jump start inspiration, I must acknowledge what has been accomplished:

  • I now have an office where I can close the door and work.
  • I've completed a rough (oh, so disheartingly rough) draft of another book.
  • I have a specific list of the books to be written this year.
  • I've completed a great deal of research.
  • My home is not what it will be but is finally in shape enough to move forward.
  • I've lost and kept off 20 pounds.
  • There is an order to things.
  • I've made friends I can call and invite for a pot of tea or glass of wine and good conversation.
  • I've been reasonably healthy.
  • I exercise fairly regularly.
  • I have found art projects I can enjoy and am fairly good at.
  • I have gotten some experience teaching at the college level.
  • I went camping with Gabe.
To be honest, there are things I haven't done and they are important:
  • I haven't made any money (and that may be the biggest, scariest item on my list).
  • I haven't manged to quit smoking although I did stop for a couple of months.
  • I haven't lost the other 20 pounds and they have to go.
  • I haven't published a book.
  • I haven't found a local college to teach at.
  • I haven't taken off my running shoes.
  • I haven't started painting the rooms in the house or putting up shelves.
  • I haven't gotten back to the piano.
  • I haven't traveled further than NYC, Harrisburg and Rochester.
Okay, so the list of what I did do is longer than the list of what I didn't do but some of the items on the "didn't do" list are critical and so they are being brought into 2012.  I don't think I'm ready to take off my running shoes yet, though, and don't know if that will ever happen.  I'm not sure it ever needs to happen.  I don't think I'll make it one of my new resolutions.  As for the other things, none of them can happen unless and until I do the first one.  I need to earn money and I don't want to do it on anyone else's terms. No running back to the state. No giving someone else the right to say how, where and when I work. No going backwards.  That means I have to move forward.  So -- here is the new impossible list:
  • Daily schedule:
    • Morning chores (chores include exercise).
    • Afternoon writing (write whenever I feel the urge but always must spend afteroons writing).
    • Evening art work.
  • Deidra Shay:
    • Revised by Jan 30 and self-published.
  • Johnny
    • Rough draft by the end of February.
    • Revised by the end of March.
  • Haunting of Waterford Road
    • Rough draft by the end of April.
    • Revised by the end of May.
  • My Ghost Story (non-fiction)
    • Rough draft by the end of June.
    • Revised by the end of July.
  • Compilation of Poetry Chap book by end of Aug using existing poems and new art work.
  • The Dragon Prince
    • Rough draft by the end of September.
    • Revised by the end of October
  • King of the Mountain
    • Rough draft by the end of November.
    • Revised byt he end of Decmeber.
  • 2013
    • Angelo, Man of the House.
    • Children Work (non-fiction).
    • Putting Mother to Bed (Memoir).
    • Greeting card line for Episale Design.
It's impossible but it's very possible.  Meanwhile I exercise, eat fruits and vegetables and limit alcohol to no more than two glasses of wine a day.  If I get half of it done I'm doing well but nothing ventured, nothing gained.  I am a writer and artist.  I plan to write and create art.  The rest will follow.  Happy New Year, everyone!

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